Hidden

You sit in the room alone, waiting for a sign that life isn’t going to be just staring at the walls. You wait to hear some form of sound, some ray of light that will enable you to escape the life you have learned to live. You have become lost in your own life, unable to find it for your too busy helping others live theirs. You see the world as if you’re looking through a window, yet you cannot open it to let life wash over you. You scream into the darkness yet no one can hear you, no one knows you’re there. You walk through life hearing the sounds of laughter, of love, of friendships, yet you cannot allow yourself to join for it will all end in hurt for you cannot give them the time they need or want. Friends drift away, unable to understand the time consuming responsibilities you have and have always had. They leave feeling shunned when all you wanted more than anything was to be free, to be able to make them feel nothing but loved and needed, you just didn’t have anything left. Ice princess, cold and unfeeling, is what you hear. No one remembers the loyalty and warmth you had before you were drawn into the depth of what you live, they only see the girl that crosses her arms to hold out the world. The girl that looks at her shoes to hide the tears that are ready to burst forth any minute, threatening her persona of strong and hard. The girl who would rather you think she was unfeeling, cold, and aloof then show you that she was scared of everything.